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  • Outer Bands

    September 28th, 2022

    It’s late September in South Florida, so it’s not surprising that I find myself living beneath the outer bands of a hurricane, roughly 200 miles from the eye.  Wind surges have shaken the live oaks all day. I’d like to say they’ve never been shaken like this before, but I know that’s not true.  Our neighborhood rests on a barrier island.  From our backyard we can hear the waves of the Atlantic crashing on the shore.

    Almost as frightening as the gales and squalls are the random periods of eerie calm.  Any sense of peace or safety is false.  With these capricious bands, you never know when the next blast will come.

    It hardly seems like five years have passed since predictions of a direct hit were so dire. My husband, dog, cat and I joined countless others on jammed interstates fleeing north.

    Days later, when we returned, the live oaks lining our street were denuded. These trees never fully shed their leaves.  In late winter they drop half of them and almost instantaneously sprout bright new ones.

    That fall I was shocked that the leaves didn’t wait until February to regenerate.  By October, no one could tell that a hurricane had blasted through.  I shouldn’t have been surprised.  If live oaks are smart enough to figure out that there’s no winter here and can withstand the intensity of the Florida sun, surely they’re capable of recovering from the ravages of 70 mph winds.

    Last night, as this year’s hurricane moved in on us, it was hard to distinguish the sound of rain from the sound of wind.  Sheets of water crashed against the stucco walls.  At one point I thought the garbage cans must be loose, but we had secured them in the garage earlier.  I turned on the outside lights.  Maybe it was someone else’s stray something that hit the house.  I saw nothing but glints of driving rain.

    Where does all of this energy come from?  What god swirled his trident over sea and sky?  It’s easy to imagine at times like these that we are in the hands of an angry, merciless being.

    The digital images on TV show arms of vapor reaching around the curve of the earth.  Could it be Poseidon throwing a right hook? 

    We are very modern people—sophisticated, educated, informed—but we still dwell among giants and titans.  The purest forms of energy are asserting themselves, proving once again that they will always be beyond us and our control. 

    Mother Nature isn’t the only one who mocks humanity’s hubris.  These winds have their origins in the sun, the center of our universe.  Our nearest star has spent all summer in cahoots with the sea cooking up this unwieldy brew.

    Here beneath the outer bands, I am grateful.  Only a few hundred miles away, homes and businesses are flooded.  We don’t know yet how much has been destroyed.  Millions are without power.  I can only imagine the fear, loss, tragedy, and mortal terror for those hit head on by this beast that blows water and wind instead of fire as it trespasses the sky and treads the shore.

    -Radiance Writer

     September 28, 2022

    Photo by NASA on Unsplash

  • Time to Love the World

    August 24th, 2022

    Hard as it may be to justify, what was once a luxury is something I can no longer afford to lose.  The extravagance of spending time in wild places is becoming the necessity it has always been.    

    Twice a week I teach yoga classes at a corporate campus situated on grounds that preserve the habitat of a South Florida barrier island—beach dunes, coastal strands, and cypress swamps.  The walk from the parking garage to the building is a hike on a winding gravel path through saw palmetto, live oaks, and dodder vines. 

    For years I have hurried to get inside and then hurried to get home or to my next class or the bank or the grocery or wherever I thought was more important than where I was. 

    Only recently, after telling myself that I needed to plan more weekend trips to local parks and the beach, did I realize that I spend time in a nature preserve twice a week on my walk to work. 

    Only recently did I allow myself time in the middle of the week, in the middle of a work day to just stop, to give up trying to control when was an appropriate time to enjoy a place where the trees, plants, animals, and vines are going about their business of living despite the intrusion of humans.

    I went even further, stepped off the gravel path, sat down next to the shallow water of the swamp.  From there I couldn’t see the upper stories of the buildings nearby.  It was just me and the water and the habitat. 

    Much more than I ever could have imagined greeted me there.

    A previously hidden universe literally sailed in on white wings.  The soft “thuft” of feathers was audible as an ibis landed and began poking its beak in the loam.

    The high noon sun radiated across the water.  I relaxed onto the damp grass and soon saw that I was in the company of more than a bird.  Tiny fish were darting and treading. Spotted dragon flies skated by.  A leaf fell from a tree.

    More time, more attention revealed turquoise sequins on the tails of the fish.  Why hadn’t I seen them before?  And there were larger fish, too, sporting muted turquoise stripes.  Where was I just a few seconds ago that I didn’t see them? 

    Out of nowhere a turtle as large as my torso angled through the water.  Something prehistoric stirred in me.  The age of myth was palpable. I wanted to tell her story, as if she were the mossback that brought the first land up from the deeps. She puts me in my place. In the epochs of time on Earth, my time is fleeting, yet frighteningly impactful.

    All the peace I’ll ever need existed in the ten or fifteen minutes that I stopped, watched, and waited.   I didn’t have to go looking for nature.  I needed to let it find me.  I needed to give reverence time to catch up to the commotion of an average human day. 

    There is enough time to love the world.  There has to be.   My soul tells me I have no choice.

    -Radiance Writer

    August 3, 2022


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